[He realizes now, how it wasn't fair. They could have actually worked things out if he hadn't been such a fucking idiot. If he hadn't let the hurt and the insecurities get in the way.
He should've never doubted it. The look on Hikaru Shinta's face that night had been a painful reminder.]
I kissed him because I wanted to show him that I'm not going to go back on my word anymore.
[That he was going to be right there, waiting, no matter how long it took. That what they had was fucked up and strange, but it didn't have to be so damaging, so unhealthy.
That they could be okay. That they would always be okay.]
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[He realizes now, how it wasn't fair. They could have actually worked things out if he hadn't been such a fucking idiot. If he hadn't let the hurt and the insecurities get in the way.
He should've never doubted it. The look on Hikaru Shinta's face that night had been a painful reminder.]
I kissed him because I wanted to show him that I'm not going to go back on my word anymore.
[That he was going to be right there, waiting, no matter how long it took. That what they had was fucked up and strange, but it didn't have to be so damaging, so unhealthy.
That they could be okay. That they would always be okay.]