[ Brigade stops and contemplates her words. He understands what she means, he thinks.
He's fought all his life because that's what he was made for. But, in truth, at its core, what he was built for was to serve. Serve in the war as a combatant against the Blood Mask and the Nazi supernaturals. Serve in the war against people who step on others. It was his purpose in life.
He feels alive, he feels complete, he feels like his fellow Deadwalker soldiers when he's on the field or on a mission. Particularly missions where he might not come back, but where he can ensure others do.
He feels... human, in a way? In putting his life down on the line for others, he feels at his closest to being like everybody else. A sacrificial weapon happy to sacrifice itself.
Oh god, I sound like Hikaru. ]
I'm... I apologize. [ He goes quiet and glances away ] Would you rather I just let you pour? I can just... [ It's hard. Letting someone serve him. As if it's against his very character. ] learn by watching.
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He's fought all his life because that's what he was made for. But, in truth, at its core, what he was built for was to serve. Serve in the war as a combatant against the Blood Mask and the Nazi supernaturals. Serve in the war against people who step on others. It was his purpose in life.
He feels alive, he feels complete, he feels like his fellow Deadwalker soldiers when he's on the field or on a mission. Particularly missions where he might not come back, but where he can ensure others do.
He feels... human, in a way? In putting his life down on the line for others, he feels at his closest to being like everybody else. A sacrificial weapon happy to sacrifice itself.
Oh god, I sound like Hikaru. ]
I'm... I apologize. [ He goes quiet and glances away ] Would you rather I just let you pour? I can just... [ It's hard. Letting someone serve him. As if it's against his very character. ] learn by watching.